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In Which I Finally Get It


Sometime around February, I became an Obama supporter.  And by that I mean that I decided to take him at his word and seriously consider the implications of doing politics HIS way.  Mind you, I am used to being on the losing end of presidential politics but I am not resigned to it by any means.  I spent so much energy in a rage over George Bush and the war in Iraq that I think that rage is partially responsible for the terminal cancer I have developed.  Being angry for a very long time KILLS a person.  And I was angry.  I wanted a Presidential candidate who would be an avenging angel, who would smite the godless republicans, who would punish them for their evil deeds, who would fearlessly force them to back down like the pack of snarling dogs they are.

But then, my teenage son, an Obama supporter since early 2007, started to seriously talk with me about politics and he opened my eyes to a few things. 

1.  He, and many other first time voters his age are truly sick and tired of the rage and the passion and the futility of what passes for politics in this country.  He did not then, and does not now, see Obama's refusal to play tit for tat as a sign of weakness.  Where many people see John McCain hitting and Obama not hitting back, others see Obama not getting all caught up in the bullshit, not losing focus, not playing the same tired game, the same tired way.  And they are refreshed and renewed.

2.  The current Obama coalition includes many people like me who are still hurt, and still angry, and still itching for a fight.  Unless we can get over ourselves, Obama is going to break our hearts.

3.  My son, a man of a mere 18 years, once asked me to choose what matters to me more, kicking Republican ass or solving problems?  And if fixing the country means NOT kicking ass or taking names, would I be willing to do that?

And you know what?  This year, I am not listening to the pundits or even my fellow bloggers all that much.  I am listening mostly to eighteen and nineteen year olds who just want to cut the crap and finally see something get accomplished in politics.  Because I am beginning to understand that they are wiser than I am.  And their wisdom comes from looking into tough future we parents have created for them with our heedlessness and our stupid culture wars and our tolerance for the trivial in public life.  They know that living with the consequences of OUR actions is going to be pretty tough and they are hoping that someone calm, cool, and seemingly unflappable like Barack Obama, someone who tells them it isn't too late to fix what WE broke will lead in a positive direction.  And if he doesn't lead, he may at least get the hell out of the way and let THEM lead.

Two weeks ago, I stopped treatments and entered a hospice program.  I am a testimony to the fact that stress and anger can kill a person.  But if  I can do only one important thing before I'm out of here permanently, I am going to live long enough to cast my vote for Barack Obama.  I'm leaving my vote as an offering of atonement to my kids and as a gift of my hope for the future.  Hope is all I have LEFT of the future.

And to answer my son's question, the answer is yes.  If the only way to end this god forsaken war in Iraq, the only way to get universal health care, the only way to fully fund education for every child from K - B.A. is to forgive every Republican sin, then I will gladly do it.  I would kiss Dick Cheney on the mouth if it would get the troops home from Iraq even one day sooner.  And if any of you can honestly say you wouldn't, then you are every bit as full of shit as most people under the age of 25 think you are.

If anybody needs to change, it isn't Barack Obama.  It's the rest of us.  We need to stop being distracted by things that just don't matter and FOCUS on what we want, rather than what we don't want.

That is the end my rant for today.  Thanks for reading.

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Thanks for sharing your very personal story as a way to illustrate a great point.

I'm not a member of the younger generation and I support Obama for a whole lot of reasons. But reason #1 is that I'm sick of the idiots in Washington digging in and screaming at each other while they let the country wither away.

I'm so glad that you have such a wise son! I hope that your remaining days with him are filled with peace, love, and laughter.

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Ah, but the irony is that you offer up the wisdom of aging here.

our stupid culture wars

My favorite slogan, and I don't have many, is "just say no to culture wars." They're actually very Un-American, ever since this place was called "the new world."

Hope that you get all your desires. Whatever happens, I bet your son will treasure this blog entry.

I believe that our children, those just entering adulthood now, are incredibly wise. I have two of my own, and they are really down-to-earth, caring, no-BS people. I really admire them. I think every once in a while there's a generation like that. If they can be the group that puts Obama over the top, then they really will have changed our culture and our world. McCain is the sorry past--he is almost laughable to them. My daughter shakes her head in disbelief whenever sees him on TV.
Please take good care and thanks for sharing. You have a wise son.

Rec'd. Outstanding post - and, judging from your son's rather astute question, outstanding parenting.

Welcome to the party. It's going to be a stone cold groove come November 4. Can you dig it?

My son, a man of a mere 18 years, once asked me to choose what matters to me more, kicking Republican ass or solving problems?
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This is a false dichotomy, like so much of your post. There are many more possibilities. One might be that to solve problems we have to first kick the republicans ass.

Sure if problems could be solved by forgiving every republican sin I'd do it. But its more likely that forgiving their sins will empower them and make it more likely that they will be able to obstruct those solutions.

Trust oceankat to be unable to recognize wisdom when he reads it.

It's less about forgiving Republican leaders for their own benefit, and more about forgiving Republican leaders for the benefit of their constituents who might possibly be more inclined to engage productively with 'our side' (or even join it!) if we're not constantly pushing their noses in past mistakes.

To put it another way, does stuff along the lines of 'Hitlery' and 'Billary' make you sympathetic to Obama supporters? Are you excited to work cooperatively with people who bring it down to that level?

It's also less about the republicans in Washington and more about the 15 to 20% who re voting democrat this year and giving them room to convince the rest of their ilk of the error of their ways.

Kicking someone's ass is rarely the best way to get them to change. Kicking someone's ass who has been the victim of 40 years of abuse by a party they trusted is just plain cruel. Perhaps you give the republican faithful a little time to heal, a little room to grow? They aren't evil - they've been duped.

Kind of like how the DLC duped the democrats.

I thought democrats are all about empathy. That would require a modicum of understanding, something there has been precious little of on both sides of the aisle. Perhaps my GOP brothers and sisters are right about you guys. You sound a little blood-thirsty to me.

I don't agree with modern Corporate Republicans. Give me a Teddie or Abe (or even FDR) before any of these losers today. But to say that any one group of Americans are responsible for this country's various and sundry problems (created by both republican and democratic administrations) is to simplify our history to the point of fiction.

I am troubled here.

Why?

Chrono, I apologize for this reply in advance:

"One river is the still point,
Which is at the center
Of every atom, when suddenly
It is the sound of iron,
And doors forming, and oxygen.
Because you have begun asking
Your friend for calm thought,
And he disrupts you, answering.
***
One river is nothing
But searching for
The next river
It has always been
Searching for.
There is nothing
To prove, like the lake
That always is clapping
Against the sky.
***
One river is pouring
Through everyone
And everything
In this room.
Pouring toward
The burning flower.

-James Grabill (from One River, Momentum Press, 1975)

Does this answer your good question?

NO.

yes

You need not apologize. =) I enjoyed it, though I don't quite understand the meaning of it.

Nor do I!

The topic of impending death is of high seriousness and so in the spirit of "bring nothing base to the shrine" -ne vile fano, my offering.

Womanofacertainage:
Thank you for re-focusing our attention on what really matters. (I, too, have a son, whose future I care enough to attempt to ensure.)
You, WoaCA, personify grace.
I honor you,
Wendy Staebler



You know, it's interesting to hear you speak about people my age (I'm 20) in such a way, because the first thing I thought when I read what you wrote was, "She gets it. She understands why I am not some angry hysterical liberal whose only goal in this world is to see Bush and Cheney destroyed. She gets that, perhaps there are more important things, and more important goals to set our eyes on."

Even though I am 20, I have been angry in the same way you have, for years. In 2000, at the age of 12, I burst into tears when it finally came down that Bush had won instead of Gore. I had, at such a young age, invested so much of myself into the election. I had invested so much hope that Gore would win. I didn't truly know how frightening Bush was, but I think my tears were partly a harbinger to the next four years, when again, I would cry at Bush's second "victory".

I would love nothing more than to see Bush, Cheney, Rove and all their buddies behind bars for the crimes they've committed. But that is not what this election is about. This election is about the betterment of our country. It is about the betterment of myself, and of all the others I love and care about. And to achieve those ends, I do not see how continuous negativity, and continuous onslaughts of hatred will progress us anywhere.

We've gone through the past eight years in a continuous cycle of hatred, depression, hurt, fear and general negativity. I do not want to go into the next four with the same mentality. Obama does not want to give me, or you, or anyone else, that kind of mandate, as was given in 2000 and 2004. And for that, I respect and admire him.

ChronoSpark


Brilliant post! Millions of us of us feel likewise.


Today the youth are much more intuitive and wiser than twenty and thirty years ago. Of course the world was much different then; we did not have to contend with Bush, Cheney, Rove, et al....

The betterment of humanity and the world is a responsibility that belongs to all of us, old and young alike. At an early age it was instilled in me it is our given-duty to leave the earth a better place. Your future and future generations depend on it.

I know Obama will do his best to undo the damage Bush & Cheney are leaving for the next President to clean up. It will take a decade or more.


Sometimes what we fear the most becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. After so much has happened it is normal to worry.


To remedy that I envision Obama, with Michelle by his side, his hand on the bible, getting sworn into office or the whole family walking into the WH together or something along those lines -- you get the drift.

Make this a blog entry. Beautifully stated.

Maybe I will... =)

I did make a post of it. You can find it here:

http://tpmcafe.talkingpointsmemo.com/talk/2008/08/but-this-election-is-not-about.php

Thanks, eastside. =)

Chrono: You are a wise person, too. And your parents should be proud (I say that as a parent so indulge me).

My Dad tells me he is on a regular basis. =) Thank you.

Well, I can barely type through my tears...thank you for sharing your thoughts, when you certainly have so much on your plate...

You are absolutely correct in your assessment. Obama's quiet eloquence in the face of slanderous statements is one of the many things that drew me to him in the first place. It's my hysterical fear that he might lose that has me crazy.

Yours is the 2nd really inspirational post I've read today, on a day when I ALMOST didn't check in...thank you for your contribution.

God bless you and your family!

Thank You for sharing your personal story. Your sincerity and grace is powerful. Your son's wisdom is a gift. It is also a reflection of you.


The youth of our country are trying to save us from ourselves and in the process their future.


Yes the republicans have done a lot of damage to this country. And they are so damned self-righteous about it and their holier than thou attitude is irritating not to mention hypocritical. Yes we have a right to be irritated and/or angry about it. However holding onto anger means we are giving our power away. Channeling that anger into doing something productive provides an outlet. Inner peace is our reward.


Many do not realize there is a link between anger and cancer. You are absolutely correct: e_motions do manifest in the physical body. Recognizing and owning it is the first step in healing. Whether a reminder or new information, sharing that with us is a gift. Thank you.

Please know that you've made a difference in this world. Your Light will always shine on.

May your Journey be filled with Light and Love and Peace forever and a day more.

Love Always in All Ways,
serena


May your heart be filled with joy, laughter, love and music. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. This is so much the truth. I have a son - he's turning 23 next month. He is like your son. This touches me and makes me want to call him now and tell him how much I appreciate him and his desire to have a world that doesn't perpetuate the foolishness of his parents' and his grandparents' and their parents' generations.

If there is hope, it is in them. And thank you for reminding us. Thank you.

P.S. I am forwarding this link to him right now.

Thank you all for your kindness and for your understanding. I need to respond to one person's comments. You know who you are.

And if what you say is true, that there can be no meaningful change without defeating Republicans, then Barak Obama really is selling snake oil and we are all doomed.

This election is so important because it is the election in which we have to choose between two ways of life. We can either see it as a contest in which we must defeat our opponents or one in which we must win for everyone's sake. What I am trying to say is that when Obama wins this election and becomes President that has to become good news for everybody, including those who struggled most fiercely against him. He isn't offering an election of conquest. He is ofering an election of reconciliation.

Do we dare to take such a step? Do we dare to reconcile? To let bygones be bygones? I don't know. But I want desperately to try. Because my needs and wants are crystal clear to me now. I want peace. I want justice. And I won't get either one without extending mercy. None of us will.

So, I say again, focus. What does the world we want to live in look like? Giving our time, our attention, our passion to making the world we want rather than rejecting the world we've got is the only thing that makes sense to me now.

And one more very personal reason I am supporting Obama in this quest. An hour ago, I was sitting wrapped up in blanketfeeling sick and miserable when Laura called me from our neighborhood Obama organization. Yes, he's organizing neighborhoods here in Ohio. And when I told her a little about my situation her response was that if I felt up to doing anything at all to help, she will personally come to my home to bring materials and give me training. We are getting together on Saturday.

Barak Obama is such a very small part of this campaign. It is really about neighbors meeting each other and joining together to work in common cause. It is about reaching out to each other to live a political life that is more decent and more about community than it has been before.

Just before she ended the call with me Laura said, 'You aren't alone. We don't want you to feel alone. There is a place for everyone in this campaign and whatever you feel up to do will be meaningful.'

Folks, if that is what it means to be an Obamabot, sign me up.

I understand that you have strong feelings that underlie your opinions. I respect your right to hold and express those opinions. I also understand that those opinions are inextricably tied to the difficulties you are facing. I feel a sense of compassion for those difficulties as well as the trying times so many are facing these days. I wish only the best for you and your family as you face those difficulties.

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Your faith, kindness, vision and courage will live on in many hearts. I plan on forwarding this to everyone I know. I wish I had the words to express just how much you have touched my heart. I am sure your words have (and will) touch many others. Please be at peace WofaCA. I am sure your hopes, and mine of peace and understanding will be realized.

Namaste,
Mary

Thank you, Womanofacertainage (from another one with a 19 year old son from the same mold). A true and generous post on many counts. Thank you and bless you!

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Thank you.

I am humbled and encouraged. The future is going to win this thing.

And with your illness I wish you peace.

you got it! welcome to the movement.

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O my goodness Womanofacertain age - you rock hard - you have raise and amazingly wise son!

You are an awesome mother!

You listened to him and let him teach you something - not very many parents are that good.

He's right and it's a really really tough thing to face - I've been fighting mad for 8 years and longer - and I have heard similar things from young voters. Once a young guy asked me so plaintively - "Please don't start a civil war. "

I have to get over it too and I'm struggling. But I believe in Obama and what he's trying to do and I stay encouraged - I don't get upset with his campaign because I actually trust him and Plouffe to do what they have to do to get him elected without turning him into McLame.

Hey, how about that feeling, "trust"? Isn't it enlightening and lifting and wonderful? To trust a leader? Yeah, the cynics say we are the followers, but what they don't realize is that there are GOOD people in the world and Obama is one of them, and aren't we damn lucky to be in this time and place where he can lead? Sure, it sounds Biblical, and maybe it is. So maybe it is, and ain't that just fucking great? Just so fucking great.

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have raised an amazingly wise son -

what I wouldn't give for a preview function.

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womanofacertainage,

That was a beautiful post. I am sorry for your situation and wish the best for you. I am also sorry that I must strike some discordant notes.

Reconciliation is a wonderful thought but what could possibly lead you, or your son and his peers, to the conclusion that the Republicans have the slightest interest in reconciliation? You can't do reconciliation by yourself. That's called appeasement.

You call it hate. I call it accountability. The crop of Republicans that have defiled our country and Constitution these past years were forged during Watergate and the Iran-Contra scandals. They were not held accountable then - under the premise of national healing and reconciliation - and they learned a valuable lesson. They learned, we were too timid to hold them accountable for their immoral and illegal activities. And, this time around, they doubled down.

If you see signs of remorse or regret among the Republicans, let me know. I will be happy to join your reconciliation movement. Sadly, something tells me that call will never come.

I truly wish the world you are preparing to depart were a better place. May you find tranquility in your journey.

First, let me say that I am so sorry that you are in hospice. But I am grateful that you can use your experience to help others see that we must break out of this destructive cycle. We face too many dangerous problems to spend another 8 years playing Rovian power games.

Hang on to cast that vote and to see your son do the same. Keep posting. Take care.

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Well Obama is nice and all, but frankly I'm not sure if I believe that our problems can be solved so long as the republican's ass remains unkicked.

Thank you for a wonderful post.

God bless you for your thoughts. A wonderful gift for those of us who need a sense of perspective from time to time. I may have to make my own post now about how my young children react to Barack when he comes on TV. (And it is an immediate thing - as soon as he starts speaking, heads start turning).

I have a five-year-old son. He's not much into anything that doesn't air on Nickelodeon or Cartoon Network.

However, every time he sees Obama on TV or the computer monitor, he runs over and says, "Daddy, look! It's Barack Obama."

Stories like this bring me close to tears.

You know, it makes me think of that saying, "If only we could look at the world through a child's eyes..."

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Peace, WofaCA. I definitely wish you peace and harmony.

I am struck by all those who have mentioned their sons and what they feel about our political situation. I too have a just-turned-16 son who is volunteering 15 to 20 hours a week on a local race - canvassing door to door and identifying supporters of a progressive candidate. The world has got to be a better place because of these young men (and I am sure there are young women too who are just the same).

My son reads a lot of blogs and do I. However, I have found that whenever I repeat something salacious I read somewhere about a candidate, usually McCain, he always says "Yeah, but that shouldn't be what this election is about. Let's not get into that". Certainly takes no pleasure in bringing the guy down. I admit I enjoy the idea of having more talking points against McCain. Another way these young people are showing those of us of a certain age what is important, what we ought to be about.

Anyway, hugs to you WofaCA. I hope you have many days full of family and positive things ahead of you. You will be in our thoughts. You are not alone.

My most profound thanks go out to you, dear lady, and to your son as well.

"That old law about 'an eye for an eye' leaves everybody blind. The time is always right to do the right thing." - Martin Luther King Jr.

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Dear Lady,

You are trading on the sympathy that your diagnosis carries. Yes, anger kills but usually through heart disease -- cancer patients who are angry usually survive longer. I wish you well.

However, wishful thinking about who Barack is and what he will do helps no one. With Barack we have a candidate who has repeatedly shown that he folds in the face of pressure, who gives away the store in negotiating situations, who panders and who is at best a liberal Republican in stances. His recent ploy that he will accept some offshore drilling (which he believes to be useless and counterproductive in terms of CO2) if it is 'necessary' to obtain other things is a case in point. With that announcement drilling immediately becomes a necessary concession to obtain other things and we get the same results as with McCain but we are supposed to support Obama anyway because he knows that it is wrong. Apparently with the gang of ten compromise currently in the offing we get drilling in return for voluntary efforts at gas conservation.

If Obama forces obtain control of the new unDemocratic party (no, I am not mollified by his condescending gesture of giving full seating rights to Michigan delegates the minute -- as I predicted -- that it didn't matter anymore) there will be no political force that will provide more than rhetorical support for the principles that I and most liberals care about. Telecoms, anyone? Which Obama promise do you currently believe? And why?

...who is at best a liberal Republican in stances.

Based on your rhetoric I wouldn't be surprised if you actually wanted him to be. The fact is, this is clear fallacy, and anyone that actually knew Obama'a stance on the issues would never make such an egregiously ignorant claim.

http://www.ontheissues.org/Barack_Obama.htm

AJM,

I thank you for your sympathy and for your kind words. But I talked about my cancer to make a point about how the anger and frustration of the last eight years have affected my life. Other people had more mature responses and they will live to struggle on. As you will.

I really agree with a lot of what you say. Getting Obama and a filibuster proof majority elected to congress will not guarantee anything. What I am counting on is that the people who come of age in this campaign and those who renew their levels of activism will not just go back to sleep when the election is over. The election is only the start of the work. We will have to work just as hard, if not harder, to advance the progressive agenda.

Obama is an organizer. He has done his part. He has helped us build a 50 state organization of awesome proportions. But he can't make it work for us. Only we can do that. And I hope that those who are going to remain are up for the challenge.

John McCain ads ask of Obama, 'Is he ready to lead?' As usual, that is so beside the point. The real question is are WE ready to lead?

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I just have to butt in here a moment and correct something AJM said. I have worked in the medical field for 13 years, the last 8 in oncology specifically. It is well known and scientifically documented that terminal patients with calmer dispositions have a much longer survival rate than those who are angry and agitated. My personal experience concurs with this observation.

So AJM is very incorrect when he says angry people live longer.

Womanofacertainage, I took the liberty of sending your post on to some friends. My very best friend called to thank me. He and I spend A LOT of time bitching about the president and his gang and like he said - you spoke directly to us. Thank you for your gift we will both remember it.

Wow. Just -- wow. God bless you and your son!

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